Im grumpy and i know it
This week has been hard core the blahs week. I have not wanted to get up at all!! Its really disappointing but it happens about every few weeks or so. I just feel like throwing in the towel. I have this little voice that says “I don’t care anymore. Give up already. Its all for nothing. You’re never going to compete and you’re dumb for thinking of doing it!” I dont know why I think that. I hate the slumps. I hate the negativity. It drives me bananas, but then I go to boxing and get this said to me “we missed you yesterday” “I love your energy you bring” and “you’re a warrior”. It makes you remember why you do this. Because you love who you are. You are a fighter and you haven’t given up yet even though you wanted to 100 times before. Whats funny though is even when I want to give up the workouts and stuff. I still look at food as junk. The idea of going back to burgers, pizza , chicken, beef and all that other food that I don’t eat anymore grosses me out. It makes me feel heavy just thinking about it, and so I know deep down that im committed.
A good bonus moment was when my friend went to boxing and he posted that he’s in pain and almost vomited after class. ;) Hes always been fairly fit, when I met him he was a bulky strong man. Hes toned down A LOT, and its a good feeling when you can do the workout and not feel that way :D
